Carpe Diem

MUSIC: Mount Wroclai (Idle Days) by Beirut




Yesterday I wore.....

Today i wore:

1st:

                                                 Purple and black stripe sweater: Salvation Army $2
                                                         blue and black knit shorts: Urban $9
                                                                             socks: dance
                                                                            shoes: Urban

2nd:

White blouse: moms closet (h&m)

pants: urban $9

boots: Moms closet (fossil)

So the first outfit is my "casual" outfit. Its really funny to me because i am not one of those people who can just throw on a tshirt and jeans and go, no, i have to plan my outfit accordingly and if i want a casual outfit i have to over think it and make one.... and it never comes out casual. This outfit was actually pretty comfy though, cause of the knit shorts. i wanted to wear something comfy the day coming back from being sick...AGAIN! this is the 3rd time in about oh....two months! that i've been sick and its starting to get on my nerves!!!!

Anysways i got the pants in the second one from urban. I originally got some harem pants that had a floral print and this blue blouse to match, but when i got home to look at them the pants were completely torn above the elastic near the ankles as if someone had tried it on and decided to just jam their foot in it! so pissed! they were amazing! and the blouse was missing a button...which normally wouldn't bug me but i was just kind of sinking in it because it was so huge. Anyway it just proves urbans bad quality of the clothes for the price you pay...even though everything is so freaking cute! But i realized how much i like going to urban just for the inspiration. I plan to take the rest of my birthday money down to salvation army with that inspiration in mind and go crazy! thats really all urban is though....really expensive replicas of things you can buy at a goodwill or salvation army store.

My Floating Balloon: Today my balloon has life. It floats up to the sky never looking back... because life just doesnt look back. I realize i must have had life in my floating balloon once before, but i feel its relavent to myself right now. Obviously i guess. But especially right now. With everything happening right now i feel like Life is just....here. Take whats happening in Japan. Seeing all those people suffering for something that was out of their hands is devistating. And watching my mom worry about all the relatives we have there is horrible. Some of their lives there in Japan cannot be saved. And with the recent death of someone at school and finding out a few weeks ago that my aunt has stage 4 lung cancer and tumors in her brain, bones, and a broken hip and watching my mom cry more then i've ever seen her cry, i guess it's just all kind of sinking in you know? I don't worry about my life as much as i worry about others i think. I realize that life is short and that you just have to forget everything that has ever brought you down, everyone who has ever screwed you over, and all the things about yourself you just hate. Forget everything. All of it. And just live. I realize that. But i know so many people who just dont. And sometimes i stay up really late in bed and think about them. My closest friend more then anything. My mom sometimes. And i just worry about them. Worry that they may never see whats a head of them and that they'll keep looking back. That they wont ever know how much i care for them and love them and think about them more then i know i should. I just want them to take life in. Just live it. Stop relying on things to make you feel better, things that just wont, and just smile at what you have. The good things that you have. Not the bad. A home. Friends. Family. whatever. And then look at Japan. Look at Haiti. Look at the boy from schools picture in the yearbook. And my aunt lying in her bed. And realize that hey, you arent them right now. No one is telling you you don't have something to look foreward to. You do. You have life always there by your side. So go live it.

Sorry for the long and depressing post. Love you all. <3 Thanks for reading.