I wana soak up the sun, got my 45 on so i can rock on!!!

-Sheryl Crow

Music: Feist- I feel it all

AHHHH!!!! Summer is almost over, which means SCHOOL! eep. The only thing I like about summer ending is i can finally wear those school clothes I got about a month ago and have been trying not to wear! its been very difficult!!!

Fun with my balloon:

I think i might use one of these as the picture for the heading. I'm not sure yet, but if you hop on to this blog and see the heading is one of these...then well i decided for it :D

My Floating Balloon: Today my balloon has expectations. I am going into the school year with 6 new pairs of schoes i didn't need, a blue streak in my hair, a few extra pounds of love on me, and low expectations of the year. However, sometimes it is good to have low expectations to me, then when things come your way you are overcome with joy/sadness/other emotions, that you never expected and cherish them that much more. On the other hand though, sometimes expectations are good to have, almost like a goal that sets everything in motion. Without them you are just riding out time without any form of possibility of what could happen. With that in mind i decided to create a School Year Resolution List:

Here we go...

1. Do yoga/ pilates once a day to work on my center (ur welcome Ms. Simmons), balance, breathing, and strength

2. Wear all of the clothes in my closet at least once this year, minus my coat that i  plan to wear in new york during winter in my dreams.

3. Dance my a** off, which i will have to do anyway. 5 classes a week not including dance at school. Blehhh
4. Get all A's (i count AP B's as A's!)
5. Try not to cry as i do my AP US History homework
6. Make at least 2 new friends
7.  Talk to one of the following people rhi and i gave nicknames to from  a far : Buddy Holly Guy, Nice Kid, Making Friends, Devon, Jesus, Robert, Folds, Bryson, Jim Morrison.....thats all i can remember....

So there you go. My expectations for this year. What are yours?


PS: Click THIS LINK and read a short story i wrote and rate 5 ***** so it can get in the magazine :) thanks a bunch!!!

You are so nice in everything that you do

Music: Love of an Orchestra by Noah and the Whale

SO MUCH H &M

Top: H&M $5

Boots: H&M $24

Rings: H&M $5

Shorts: Walmart

Bangle: Forgot :P

Gold bracelet: Kohls $3

Bag: My childhood

Im getting so sick of that stupid date! But im too lazy to take it off.

My Floating Balloon: Today my balloon has a short story i wrote. One of many quick writes :) If you like it click this link and give it 5 stars so that it can end up in the magazine.(it sounds a little odd when you read it, but thats how i wanted it to sound)

His hand in mine. “How does that feel?”

“It feels nice”

His arms around me. “How does this feel”

“It feels nice”

His lips parted on mine. “How did that feel?”

“It felt nice”

You are so nice. In everything that you do. I wouldn’t want to be with anyone but you. Trust me it is true. When you ask me the questions about how I feel, I become conscious and scared and I search for the words to help me describe it best. But I cannot find the words, and I think I know why. I think it is because no words can describe the feeling I get when I am with you.

So instead of searching for the right words to say, I mumble a simple phrase “It feels nice.”
And I know what you think when I repeat the same words, “Am I doing something wrong?” But you are so nice, and no nothing is wrong. It is nice. It is perfect. Exactly like you.

But I know these words are not enough, because at one point I almost lost you. These cursed words that come to my brain almost made you leave me in pain. Away from me. Angry. But you could never be too angry. Because you are so nice.

“How are you feeling today?” You asked, leaving a tender kiss on my head.

“I feel nice.” I whispered, looking down at my hands, and you became so mad.

“Am I doing something wrong? I just can’t understand” you said, pleasantry gone , leaving only annoyance instead.

“Nothing is wrong, how could you think that at all?” I questioned confused. But I knew exactly how you could think that at all. These words in my head were terrible things. Nice. It’s not enough. But it is all I can say.

“I can’t get close enough to you.” you said sternly and distraught “All you ever say is nice. I am nice. You are nice. Our kisses are nice. Is nothing good enough for you!” You yelled. It wasn’t a horrible yell, don’t let my words and exclamations confound you. You were gentle, sweet and kind. You were nice.

“Don’t you see” I put my hand on your cheek to calm you down. Your warm skin was entrancing
“You are nice. Your touch is nice. Your kisses are nice. Nice to me is perfect to you.” I took my hand away, and with all my might I hoped that you would stay. And you did. Because you are so nice.

So then you knew. You knew you were nice to me. So, well, am I nice to you?

A Little Bit of Everything

^ how i pictured my posts

MUSIC: Naiive by the Kooks

Pictures taken a while ago. 1st me 2nd my friend taylor :) A wonderful day at the park!

My Floating Balloon: Today my balloon has everything. All that we love. All that we hate. All that we have no opinion about. All the things that we never get to see and may never see. All the places that we have never been to. All the peoples faces that you may never get to meet. Everything. Try to go out and find some everything that you have never met/seen/been to and enjoy it. <3 Thanks for reading.

Excellence, then, is a state concerned with choice

-Aristotle

Music: and the boys by angus and julia stone

I wore:

Ah! so i got a new camera but it doesnt have self timer!!! so i returned it. I was soooo close to good quality pictures! aw well, i figured out how to make my webcam photos bigger without making it super blurry. now its just normal for it.

1st set:

Jacket: China town $2

 shorts: thrifted pants i cut $1

tank top: rvca $? gift.

Boots: crossroads

Necklace: teen vogue diy

2nd set:

Shirt: Wal-mart $5

skirt: Chinatown $2

belt: neighbor $free

Boots: crossroads (again)

Pictures im sorta obsessed with

1st: i just took it randomly playing with my new camera that i took back.

2nd: My mom walking in hunington beach. The sun was hitting the camera amazingly.

3rd: Stopped from a video my mom was taking accidentally

4th: my puppy (whos not really a puppy) more pictures of this and the last one at my other blog

5th: an old picture of my mom and i when i was a wittle baby (thats me in the corner)

6th: another picture i took with the puppy one

My Floating Balloon: Today my balloon has choices. There are so many choices we can make its crazy to think how sometimes we can only pick one. I was shopping at barnes and noble with my friends and came across this book that was all about choices. It was amazing. Basically it was a story written in many different ways. You read a chapter then at the end you got a choice of what you wanted to happen and you had to go to that page. I guess its kind of like the goosebump books but it wasn't. ANYWAY! i like that idea, but i got to thinking what if i didn't know the choice i wanted for the character. What if i couldn't choose and i didn't like the outcome of the one that i did choose? It is like life. Which i am guessing the author is sort of saying when he/she wrote it. In life you are going to have a hundred thousand million choices your going to have to make and sometimes you wont know what to choose and you're not going to like how it turns out, but that is just life. I am faced with a choice right now, and i don't know what i'm going to do based on the fact that i am scared of what the outcome will be. But. But! i am just going to have to face it. Like all of us should do. A little lessson for you there. <3 Thanks for reading.

Im inspired

My Floating Balloon: Today my balloon has inspiration. It travels up looking down at the world and taking notes of things as it ideas emerge in its mind.  I get inspired by most anything; music, clothes, stores, people, random items. I am sure im not the only one! right? I think creativity comes out of your mind using the inspirations that have traveled into it. Right now i am bursting with inspiration. I want to do so many things and so many project and i just dont know where to start! I'll start with the rest of my post i suppose!

I went to little tokyo and china town today! it was great! tons of shopping and i got amazing deals on clothes! I'll be doing many posts with my outfits soon!

here are some ictures:

Top: urban $9

shorts: wal-mart $10

tights: 99 cent store

oxfords: urban $5

The first one is me in china town and the rest are little tokyo. and that is my mum in the last one :D

<3 Thanks for reading

New Ideas

Music: Shark in the water by VV Brown

Old:

Old pictures never used

New:

No pictures just A NEW BLOG! I made a new blog with my two best friends: thekickasscult.blogspot.com !!!

I am still going to have this blog though because i love it so much. I am just going to be also doing the other one. So ya! Please check it out and PLEASE FOLLOW!

My Floating Balloon: Today my balloon has new things! Change is hard but sometimes opening up something new in your life can be great! That's all there is to say! <3 Thanks for reading!

Sad Summer Hymnal

Music: White Winter Hymnal by fleet foxes

i finally got one of their cds and gave it a good listen! This song is amazingly beautiful and my friend Taylor did a cover of it on youtube so give it a good listen as well (i'm in the video hehe)

(oh and i do realize it is summer and not winter...but a good song like this should be listened to all year)

I wore:

Sorry for the low quality pictures again...now my moms camera isnt working! it just never ends!

Dress: H&M sale $10, boots: Steve Madden from DSW $60, belt: free from friend

The other day i wore:

(not actual date) Skirt: TJ Max i think... $7, shoes: Steve Madden: $?, Jacket: Neighbor $free (i put new buttons on it) Necklace: I made for my mom then borrowed it :D

This is a dress i have to wear for one of my dances for lyrical.

Quote of post: "This is my depressed stance. When you're depressed, it makes a lot of difference how you stand. The worst thing you can do is straighten up and hold your head high because then you'll start to feel better. If you're going to get any joy out of being depressed, you've got to stand like this."  - Charlie Brown

My Floating Balloon: Today my balloon has sadness, but not regular sadness. It has the sadness you feel towards yourself. The kind you get when you are depressed or feeling bad and you blame everything and everybody else for it. I don't feel this way often because I look at things in the view that it is always my fault. Which i guess is not very good either. However i see it as if something is wrong with me that is making me feel bad it may be because i have done something or have an effect on it, not anybody else. Anyway, i know that we have all probably blamed others for our feelings, and sometimes it should be blamed, but when it comes to sadness for yourself i believe that maybe you should step back and look at exactly what you are sad for. Sometimes you just need to look at it and get over it. I know that sounds bad, but it is true. Dont mourn for yourself. Just stop, think about something else and all that is great in your life and put on your happy face. :D <3 Thanks for reading.